Hello dear Bloggy Friends!
Happy Friday to you! I hope you've been having a fantastic, life-giving week!
As I shared in my last post, unfortunately, it's been a super hard week for me. Stinging, hurtful words were shared about my outside appearance~ and I received them like arrows piercing right to my soul.
I spent the beginning part of the week walking around in a fog like the "walking wounded", replaying the hurtful words, feeling the sting, living in the pain. And suddenly it was not just the hurts from this week ~ messages from years and years of feeling not good enough were being replayed in my head.
Have you ever been there before??
Thankfully, yesterday the fog began to lift. I woke up at 4:30 AM (which never happens!) and sensed I needed to get up and listen and pray.
I headed downstairs, made some coffee, and sat in my favorite prayer spot. Enough of my pity party, it was time for TRUTH to take over, and for the lies to stop!
With notebook in hand, I soon realized a couple of serious mistakes I was making...
Mistake #1 ~ I was waiting for this person to remove the "arrows". I kept hoping this person would come to their senses, reach out, tell me how incredibly sorry they were, pull out the arrows, and make things all better.
TRUTH ~ Jesus alone is my Healer. He will bind up my broken places. He longs to bring healing to my wounds.
Mistake # 2 ~ Walking around feeling sorry for myself wasn't going to help.
TRUTH ~ Jesus came so that I might experience life more abundant! I am more than an overcomer in Him! I am no longer and insecure 6th grader wanting others to like me. I am secure, significant, and set apart in Him!! (Can I get a woo hoo?!)
Mistake # 3 ~ I shouldn't open myself up and be vulnerable. People hurt me too much.
TRUTH ~ His TRUTH shall be my shield (Psalm 91:4 NKJV)!!
I left my early morning prayer time with a renewed passion for my life in Him and a desire to let nothing hold me back from being the woman who God has called me to be ~ curves and all!.
Praise the Lord ~ the fog and the funk was lifting!!
I also was intentional to fill my day with lots of life-giving things.....
Quiet time @ the bookstore, having fun with my gang, spending time poolside reading Unsqueezed (my new favorite book!), a prayer walk with Julie, checking in with my mom, a chat with my therapist, an encouraging word from my mentor, 1:1 time with John, healthy food, and re-reading the words of encouragement from my dear bloggy friends.
Oh, and a skinny vanilla latte too :)
Thank you so much for your prayers, kind words, and support. I'm so grateful God did not intend for us to journey alone!!
Thankfully, today is a "funk-free" day for me. Yippee! The kids and I are getting ready to head to a hotel for a night of swimming, fun & games, snacks, and laughter!! Woo Hooo! I've got some "life in all its fullness" to catch up on!!
What about for you?? When life gives you trouble (which unfortunately it will)....how do you make it through your foggy days?? What verses have really spoken to you?? I would love to hear from you!!
May your weekend be filled with many life-giving, precious moments!!
God's richest blessings to you!!