Friday, April 23, 2010

Caffeinated Randomness: Frustrated Friday

Hello dear Friends! I'm interrupting our *She Sparkles* Anniversary Celebration for a little Caffeinated Randomness and Friday frustrations! What a week it has been! (And unfortunately I didn't use my "healthy coping skills" to deal with all the stress!) Ahhh!!

First I should tell you, Monday was awesome!! Our family had the chance to share at Rockford Christian School's chapel the "Mystery of the Big Gift". It's a kid~friendly version of the Gospel. I love it! So much fun ~ and for everyone to participate is a blast! My little Benj even was the sound guy. What a blessing!

Monday night was Bible Study! You all know how I love Magnificent Monday's. Our study recently "outgrew" our large classroom (we've gone from 90 women to 169+ women this Spring session) ~ and Monday night we moved to the large sanctuary to gather! What a significant night on our journey!!

And then, of course, the trouble starts. It began innocently enough. Tuesday I sent John an e-mail to see if he wanted me to bring him a lunch. I didn't hear from him. I sent him an e-mail later in the day, I didn't hear from him. Finally around 5:00 PM I sent him another e-mail asking him to please call home. He didn't.

I later learned John never received any of my e-mails. Surely his computer must be down because my internet is working fine. EXCEPT I soon learn that it is MY e-mail that is not working, and hasn't been for 3 days. All the e-mails I thought I sent on Tuesday never went anywhere (even though they are in my SENT box). How does that happen??

And yesterday my brother (who is an IT specialist) tells me that I've been kicked out of my e-mail program (Outlook) and I have to use a new e-mail program (after I just typed in 169 new names in my address book!). I need to start over from scratch. What a mess!!

The hardest part of having my e-mail down for 3 days was feeling that I was letting others down. I have a long list of important notes I need/want to send. Women I care about. Dear friends I told on Monday I would e-mail on Tuesday. Significant ministry opportunities. You get the drift...

So what did I do?? I whined. I fussed. I complained. I asked John to pray while I sulked. I whined some more. And then I ate.

I should also mention I re-signed up for Weight Watchers last week. (I wasn't sure I was going to mention this on my blog, but today I'm feeling frustrated and random.). A few years ago (after the 3 babies in a row), I lost 25 pounds with WW and a lot of hard work and exercise.

Over the last few years (with 4 kids and an apreciation for chips & salsa and coffee), I gained the 25 pounds back. Discouraging. With my 40th birthday in less than 3 weeks, I decided it's time to get "40 and Fit".

I've been working really hard this week, making great food choices ~ and then this happened. And yesterday I threw "counting points" out the window, and comforted myself with food. Almonds, grapes, apples, and pretzels ~ but still bringing my old bad habits to a new day. I went to bed discouraged.

Thankfully, after being at our kids' wonderful Spring program in the evening, I had hymns of praise in my heart and mind all night long. I woke up singing,

Praise God from whom all blessings flow,
Praise Him, all creatures here below.
Praise Him, above you heavenly hosts.
Praise Father, Son and praise the Holy Ghost.

Thank you Millbrook Christian School kids for blessing me!! :)

And for today, I will not run to old comforts. I will not allow my old fears to cloud my new day. I will not grumble or whine or complain. I will voice my feelings (appropriately) and turn to the One who hears, who knows, and who is concerned. And yes, I will go to my WW weigh in, and get back on track. I'm so thankful for new mercies...aren't you???

I warned you this was random and full of frustrations. Sorry. My hope is to be real with you (always) and this is how I'm really doing today. I'm going to post it before I edit it and trust the Lord will allow the good stuff to stick. And later today I really will be back to post more GIVEAWAYS. It's time to get my celebratory mood back!!

Have a Fantastic Friday!! God's richest blessings to you!!!

P.S. If you didn't enter my Starbucks GIVEAWAY, it's not too late. Click here to enter.

P.S. Thanks again to Andrea at Under Grace & Over Coffee for hosting the Caffeinated Randomness. Be sure to stop by her blog ~ I'm sure you will enjoy it! :)

***UPDATE ~ I just came home from WW and I'm down 5.4 lbs this week. Can I get a Woo Hoo?! ****


Denise said...

Sorry to hear about your e-mail saga! Isn't Outlook just wonderful?

And I think sometimes we all sort of fall into one of those - whine-complain-eat-repeat moods. I threw myself a big pity party this week when because of the volcano I didn't get to London to visit my best friend.

But getting hymns of praise stuck in your head is definitely a wonderful way to break out of it! =)

Julie@comehaveapeace said...

LOVE new mercies every morning :) and lots of good things "stuck" out of it. Blessings to you, dear Cindy, for a day of victory and affirmation.

~ Julie

Michelle said...

I hate weeks like that. I'm happy to hear about your weight loss. That sounds great!

Bobbi said...

I love's going on my fridge! "I will voice my feelings (appropriately) and turn to the One who hears, who knows, and who is concerned."

Natalie at Mommy on Fire said...


God hears you and he cares - even about the things that seem little to us. How wonderful that you take it straight to Him.

Thank you for your transparency. I really believe that we must all be this way - if people think Christians are perfect and always have it together, then why on earth do we need Jesus?

Happy CR!

Anonymous said...

Woo Hoo!!! for YOU :) I'm proud of you and your hard work!!! Keep it up. You're an inspiration to me!!!! Love, Jenny C.

DeniseLynn said...

Hooray on the weight loss!! Cindy, I know it's not easy - so glad you're finding success. I treated myself to a starbucks yesterday and totally thought of YOU. ;-)

Rachel Clark said...

WooHoo...congrats on the lost weight. And thanks for sharing your frustrations. We all have those days, its just how we get back on track and how we remember God is bigger. Great thoughts!!!

Julie Richardson said...

Yes, my sweet friend - I am rejoicing with you from Israel with a big WOO-HOO about those lost pounds!! I miss you a ton and can't wait to get together and catch up, pray and go on a nice long walk!! Sending you hugs from
the Galilee for now...Julie

Anonymous said...


I think we all have days like that - you're definitely not alone!

Theresa said...

congrats on the lost pounds!!! I love WW - I wish I could afford the program because the weekly weigh in and meetings are what was always so motivating for me. I can still follow the point system though.

Sorry about your e-mail program. I've never used Outlook... people say they love it though. What's so great about it?

Tracy said...

Woo hoo, Cindy. That is so awesome. Computer frustrations are different from other frustrations. You had a TOUGH week. I hope that you have been able to salvage some of it.

Thank you, Jesus, for having broad shoulders! This is an inspiration for how to deal with a bad week, Cindy. Thank you.

Karen said...

We all have those kinds of days. At least you ate healthier foods! I would be tempted to eat chocolate, chocolate, and more chocolate. :)

Hope you have a wonderful weekend!

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Faith said...

WOW good for you!! I've got four kids too and it is SO hard to loose weight! It's not as easy as before!
Hope you continue to have sucess with your weight watchers program! My mom was able to do it. Hope you can too!


I learned that praise song many years ago as a child. It is so inspirational. Thanks for bringing to my rembrembrance. God bless. I like your blog

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