I'm sick today. Worn out. Crabby. Tired of being sick. Tired of sneezing and coughing and having a sore throat. Tired of being tired. Today is not my favorite day.
I wish I could have spent the morning in bed, but I had to go to a taste test bright and early this morning. It always sounds great when I sign up, but after 90 minutes of discussing breakfast foods and then having to try 7 different bowls of cereal in 15 minutes (which I couldn't taste anyway with my cold) ~ my head thought it was going to explode! (The bright side is that I "randomly" ended up sitting next to my old neighbor, and made extra grocery money). But so much for a nice, peaceful morning to restore my weary soul while my kids were at school.
So what did I do? I went to Starbucks. I drive myself crazy! Why do I think when I'm feeling lousy that a decaf venti skinny vanilla latte with no foam and extra hot will make everything better. Why?? Why in the world do I do this?? Why do I run to a latte to soothe, to satisfy, to comfort - when I know where my real Satisfaction comes from! O Lord help me!
The Bible Study that we just finished on Monday nights totally speaks to this topic. (It's called No other gods by Kelly Minter. I would highly recommend it ~ especially the workbook). We've only been finished with the book for a week now, but I guess I should pull it back out tonight. Review those scripture vereses. Remind myself why I want to run only to the One True God, and how truly Satisfying He is. Focus on the Lord of Lords and the King of Kings. Allow Him to comfort and heal me, and bring His peace to my weary soul.
No more lattes for me. Not that they are a bad thing (if you enjoy a Starbucks run, please don't hear me trying to discourage you). I just know for me personally I run to lattes like a gambling addict runs to a casino, or an alcoholic runs to a bar. It's called idolatry, and I want nothing to do with it. Nothing! I have confessed my sin to the Lord and received His forgiveness and His grace.
Oh, and please help me mark this moment. No more Starbucks for me!
P.S. If you see me with one of these cups in my hands, please feel free to tattle on me!!!