Hey Friends ~
Happy Tuesday to you! I pray you are having a Truth-filled day!
What an emotional roller coaster I have been on this week. I still don't know how everything is going to shake out - but in an effort to keep it real here on *She Sparkles* - I write to you in the midst of the waiting.
As you may remember, I've been planning to go to Turkey to film a new women's Bible study with RBC Ministries for months now. This past Friday (6 days before departure) I completely lost my voice (this has NEVER happened before). I let RBC know right away, and yesterday the Director determined it'd be too big of a risk to take a crew over when the speaker didn't have a voice (makes sense!).
Unfortunately, with the way their budget is set up, if the study isn't filmed this month, it would need to be postponed until next year, and would probably be filmed locally.
I'll admit, friends, I bawled my eyes out.
Take one painful throat, plus lack of sleep (due to night time coughing fits), 3 1/2 days of solitude on the couch (have I ever told you I don't "do sick" well?) plus this disappointing news = a recipe for a complete meltdown.
However, while the RBC Production Assistant was telling me this heart wrenching update - her boss interupted her and asked if my schedule would allow to go next week. I quickly checked with my husband John and he said yes. So RBC contacted their agent in Turkey to see about switching plane tickets, shooting permits, hotels, etc... for the whole crew.
And so I wait.
However, in the midst of this waiting period, I am asking God to give me eyes to see Him. I've been begging God to reveal Himself to me (John 14:21) so that I might know His perfect plan in this "detour".
"Those who obey my commandments are the ones who love Me. And because they love me, my Father will love them, and I will love them. And I will reveal myself to each one of them." John 14:21 NLT
Yesterday within 30 minutes of my sad phone call, He sent my neighbor Tricia to my door. She was armed with soup and song books. She asked if she could play my piano and worship God. What a gift! I sat on my couch and cried and read Scripture as my home was filled with beautiful, heart felt hymns of praise to God.
My email was quickly filled with words of Truth and encouragement from many sweet friends. Every single word brought hope and joy to my weary soul, and the Truth shared was like a healing balm. (Thanks, friends!)
My sweet mentor Mary showed up with her Bible and healing oils. I think any ailment I've ever had (and will have) was prayed out of me! (Mary, you rock!)
My refrigerator was quickly stocked with healthy foods, yummy treats, pitchers of hot tea, honey...not to mention the different natural remedies dropped off by caring friends. Blessed.
My parents and in-laws continue to help shuffle kids here and there while I sit quietly on the couch, with my scarf and warm air humidifier, seeking God and His healing touch.
And I wait.
I cling to the Truth that although I don't know the future, I do know the One who holds the future.
I rest on the promise that God has not abandoned me. He knows what He's doing.
I trust Him.
What about you, dear friends? Have you ever been, or are you now, in a season of waiting? How have you seen God show up in the midst of your challenging seasons? What have you learned in God's waiting room?? I'd love to hear from you!
Thanks for your prayers and encouragement, my dear *She Sparkles* friends! I thank God for YOU!
P.S. I did go to my ENT (Ear, Nose and Throat doc) today. After sticking a mirror down my throat (gag!), he said while my vocal cords are still inflamed, I am on the road to recovery. Yay! I'm on a steroid now too (if I make it to Turkey, I may be puffy. Just sayin')....but my ENT is confident my voice is on its way back. Woo Hoo!
P.P.S. Here's one of the songs Tricia played for me on my piano. It's now my "theme song" for this waiting time.