Only God Pt 3 (& my desperate plea for prayer!)

My dear friends ~

Have you ever been a part of something that you know ONLY GOD could orchestrate?

You may remember, last month I went to my home town of Kokomo, Indiana to begin filming my testimony with RBC Ministries (recap: Part 1 & Part 2)

Being in front of a camera (and then having to talk into the camera!) is 200% out of my comfort zone.

Thankfully, with family and friends "praying down the tracks", I made it through the filming in one piece (and with minimal tears). Whew! :)

This week, the production continues...and I am once again desperate for prayer!

In addition to a number of fun scenes, I'll be sharing the hardest day of my life (and I am dreading it!).

First the fun part....

It's my husband John's turn! :)

The amazing "Day of Discovery crew" will be capturing John doing all the things that were so helpful to me while I was a grieving single mom....mowing my lawn, fixing my car, helping glue gummy worms on a board for the 100th day of school. Our son Benj is going to play "little Jake".

They'll also be filming John writing out a paycheck for me (that's how we met - John wrote the paychecks for Mars Hill Bible Church when I first joined the staff). Fun!!

However, they are also recreating the scene when I get scolded by a police officer after my cocaine overdose. Ugh.

I'll also be in the studio reading at a lot of my testimony for the parts when they will be sharing photographs (sorry I don't know the technical terms)....the "voice over". Hopefully I'll be able to talk slowly (easier said than done for me!)

On Wednesday, we'll be recreating December 10, 1998 ~ my hardest saddest day ever. :(

That's the tragic day my fiance David was killed.

I still vividly remember being in my parent's home when I received the shocking phone call. I also recall clearing the grief counselors, church friends, and family out of the way ~ as I sat with my friend/pastor Rob Bell weeping and begging him to explain David's death.

"Why Rob, why??? Why would God allow this???" I shouted as I sobbed into my trembling hands.

I don't remember everything Rob said that horrific night, except that one day God would use this all for His purpose.

Fast forward 13 years, and we'll be re-creating this "Christmas scene" in my parents home. (A huge thank you to my parents and girls for decorating early for Christmas!)

I will be looking directly into the camera as I reflect on this painful night. I can't even imagine how I'm going to do this. It'll take a miracle.

I would be so humbled and honored if you would pray.

Upon completetion, RBC will be airing my testimony on their Day of Discovery television show. My stomach hurts just thinking about it all.

ONLY GOD.

I am so out of my comfort zone that I can hardly think straight. Thankfully, one friend reminded me...."Cindy, It might be over your head, but under His feet!!!!"

(Thanks, Becky Turner. I needed that!)

Have you ever been a part of something that you know ONLY GOD could orchestrate? How did you make it through? Were there Scripture verses that helped? I'd love to hear from you!!

I would also be grateful for any prayers you might offer on this project's behalf!! I cling to the hope that one day someone would share they were in a hard place, but then they turned on the TV (or watched a Day of Discovery DVD) with some redheaded girl, and he/she thought..."If God could get her out of that mess, there's hope for me too!" :)

I'm so thankful that God can take our insecurities, our ugliest moments, our hardest days and transform them all into something He can use for His purposes. You too?? :)

Thanks so much for stopping by *She Sparkles*! I thank God for you!!!

Sweet blessings~

P.S. I'm linking up today with Jen and friends at Soli Deo Gloria. Be sure to check out this amazing sisterhood of women! :)